Elizabeth's world

Life is as easy as what we thought it would be.
There’s a saying ‘Live your life to the fullest”.
But who can really achieve it?
Would that be a motto in your life?
If yes, what can you do to achieve it?

If you think I am scared of losing than I think you’re more afraid of losing cause I don’t think what I’m doing is cause I’m scared of losing. I’ve been taught that practice makes prefect. If you don’t understand a thing just keep on trying out and you will get the hang of it. Hmmm.. Finally have 看开了。

It’s not that I’m bad or what. But it’s $$$ Eh. It’s not a small sum of money. It is quite a big sum leh. Feel bad for asking you all this that but hey if you is me you will also do the same right. Please forgive me I’m not gonna do this again.

Once 1.2 starts this coming Monday. No more computer and tv for me. I really need to study hard. It is not easy to get good gpa but I am going to try. Hope that I will be motivated to study. I can tell no one cause I’m afraid that history will repeat itself again. I don’t want people to feel that I am a emo kid but people do have low points. Why that person can understand her but not me. You make a big impact in my life. Cause of you I am afraid I will lose more friends that I use to tell them what’s in my heart. Now I got no one to talk to about what’s in my heart. My heart is hurting. I am very disappointed.

Past.

Wanna get back to secondary school life. I feel so much better there. Cause that’s a place which I know there are people out there that care for me. I dream about something. How I wish that can really happen. I want to hang out with you all very badly. I miss all of you. I miss those advise, teaching, teasing, chatting and playing. :( As I get older I really become more childish cause in many people mind I am a young matured girl that is independent and can be trusted on every task that is given to her. I don’t want this impression. I want care and concern. Maybe that’s the reason why I became more childish. It must be the reason. I really wanted to do all those silly stuff to get everyone’s attention but I started thinking, and I did some silly stuff but didn’t tell you. Cause I don’t want to add on to all your trouble. But deep in my heart i am still one lonely girl that want someone to know that I need people to care about me and want people to notice me. I just need you to be there for me till one day I can let go off you and there is someone else that I think can take over you.

Life..

As i was checking for my schedule of my modules i realise that i am 2 and a half month old in my new school. Hmm.. Life in poly have been okay so far cause i have met some awesome friend all of them are from my class. They have been very nice. But i was told that poly friends are not a true friend. But so far so good. Class test have keep popping by to greet me. It is very different from secondary school cause in secondary we don’t really have so much testes (from what i remember). And often the test are just test it is not counted in your result or something call G.P.A. So if you never do well in it, it won’t affect you too much.. But in poly every little thing can affect you or you can say WIll affect you. Before i started my poly life this year, people around me always say that poly life is very slack and we got to be very indepent. I will agree on the second part but not the first part. Ever since i start schooling in poly projects and test never stops and who say you can just skip lectures and lesson as and when you like. NO. It’s not true. You can skip at the most 2 lectures? Cause if your attendance is lower than a percentage you are going to get a PASS for the module no matter how well you score in that module. I am not discouraging any students to not go to poly but Hey guys, poly life is not that easy. 

Wow it’s been long since i post something that is so long and i am suppose to study for my TEST tomorrow but i can’t not stop and type this post cause i really thing that being a poly student is not easy. :) Anyway a long holiday is coming this August. Am looking forward to it? Hopefully i will get a job and save some money. Oh and i pass all my modules for my CA or i dont know what it is call. :) Hope i wont fail wrtoral. 

你伤心时他还是不能和你一起伤心。。。
他不是你要的但是他还是会陪你的。。。
你可能不知道他一直都要你开心。。。
他没说出口但他是想要跟你说却不能。。。
他伤心时一直都装没有事但他心时在哭得。。。
没有你时他认为活在世上没意思了。。。
他一直想跟你说一句话那就是。。。
我爱你♥

nice right? my friend typed this.. it is the feeling i am going through now.. 

heres one more…

为什么你这么狠心？？
我是不是做错什么？？
为何你不要理我呢？？
如果是我的错你就说可以吗？？
我真的很想你。。。
如果我真的做错了，那我就在这说三个字给你
对不起

你为什么一天一天的弄我伤心
我不懂我可以如何让你开心…
我知道你很伤心但是我要你知道当你伤心时有人会比你更伤心的…
他不能让你开心所以他就只能在一旁偷偷的帮你…
他不想要你伤心他也知道他很没用因为他不能让你开心…
他的心很痛…他每次看到你伤心时他的心是在哭…
他不会让你看到他很伤心所以他就让你看到他是开心的…
不知道你为什么伤心但是
他会借给你他的肩膀如果你要哭。。。
他会听你讲的每一句话。。。
你需要人陪你他已定会陪你的。。。
你所要的爱他不会给你是因为他不懂你要的爱是怎样的

so true.. it’s not type by me. can i forward it to you?

i wonder. if i gone missing one day who will notice.. my family of course. but what about my friends. maybe there will be a few. but will you notice. i really need and want you to be by my side. i see my friends have sisters, i am super jealous of them. cause they can have someone to talk to when they are in some types of trouble. can share secret with one another. can share stuffs. can go out together. me i have none. although i have a elder female cousin.. she and i are more of a friend than sisters. i used to talk to her share a little secret with her. but now things have changed. i am really jealous of people that have elder sisters. i want to have one too. i am like a elder sister and not a younger sister. i have to be independent. who know that i am actually not like what i look like.. i maybe playful and look very happy go lucky. but hey do you know that i have many things that you guys do not know. it is at the bottom of my heart. but after i know you everything changed. but now things changed again. i am back to the old me. sometimes i really want to go find you, pick up my phone and call you. but i didnt dare to. i am afraid that i might lose you totally. but hey am i holding on to something that will not be like before. i wanna give up but every time when i am there to the end point something will happen. can you just dont leave me please. am i like somewhere in your heart or mind? i still can remember all the promises you make.. everything that you told me. i am afraid that i might forget how you look like i put your pic somewhere so i can see it and remind me of you. i really feel like hugging you tight. dont let you go. your goodnight messages used to make me feel sweet and want to sleep and wake up early to see your morning messages but now your goodnight messages to me are goodbye messages. so what can i do?